Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Can't Sleep!

I find myself unable to sleep. Tossing and turning for hours. I feel a little lost here. My current struggles seem to stem from a lack of good health. This year it feels as though I have been sick more then the rest of my life put together. There is an emotional toll that is paid along with that. I currently feel like I go through my days stuck in a dream. What I mean is that when you are in a dream you never really have the ability to logically think. Generally you tend to flow through the scenario with out question as if it is meant to be. You may feel emotions, but there is not really any time for deep though as to what your next step will be. I feel as though I am somewhat stuck in a similar place. I have this desire to be refreshed, made new. I want to think about every action I make and yet currently it feels nearly impossible. There is no question of faith or trust in God, but instead there is a lack of connection to this life. Mostly I believe it is the physical ailments that fill my head with a fuzzy dizziness. I also believe that working strange hours plays its part. Evil will use any foothold it can and make its way in. I know my God, the God if the universe, the creator of Heaven and Earth, Jesus the sacrificial lamb are all constantly fighting my battles for me now so I don't worry too much, but I know I have a responsibility to protect myself from the sinful temptations that show themselves. For all those out there who may feel the same from time to time take heart. Do not be afraid, but trust those around you to pray, ask for help in keeping yourself pure and if you cant read the word, listen to it. Do not fall away or let sin destroy you. Jesus' sacrifice is for all of us, in every situation. You may not be able to overcome sin alone, but with Jesus all things can be done. Do not be afraid. God bless!
Its another day. I have not written for some time now, but I feel I need to continue this endevor. God has been doing a work in my life, but I don't really understand it. I have been given a great peace about previous selfish desires. I have been blessed with a job so I can use the hands God provided. I have struggled with sickness and have found myself struggling to focus on anything let alone attempting to understand the word. Yet out of all that I know God is still there. He has not changed or left me. I have also been reminded through this of my favorite passage John 16:33 _

        “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Jesus Christ has suffered, beaten and brused for my sins, he was hung on the cross and ridiculed for me, he died and went to hell in order to take the keys to the cell of eternal hell and arose to life, to save me. I am a blessed man this day to know the God of the universe and to know what He has done for me, for all of us. I encourage you all to remember what this week means. God has blessed us all. Let us worship Him this day.